on happiness...
its aLL we ever need, righT?!
to bE happy?
in the eNd, its the onLy thing we wAnt to ever haVe...
haPpiness.
it jusT sUcks when your hAppiness depeNds on sOmeone
eLse...
wHen its out oF your conTroL...
when it couLd disappear in a sNap...
i heard soMewhere that one's haPpiness shouLdn't
depend on otheR pPoL...
fOr how cAn we be geNuineLy happy with someone eLse
if we can't be happy on our own...
that's buLLshit to me, right now...
being aLone sucKs... esp. when you know how it is to
be in Love...
or maybe ive just had a bad day...
i was thinking how one person can take hold of you
without trying...
without ever knowing it...
how can we let that happen?
how can we let things like these catch us off guard?
...
the heart is a very fragiLe thing...
we can't just let anyone have it...
we shouLdn't...
coz if we're not carefuL, it'LL break into thousands
of pieces...
and i beLieve, that if that happens, and we decide to
put it all back, there wiLL aLways be a few too many
pieces missing...
we might not know it, ...
might not admit it...
but broken hearts, even if mended wil aLways have
scars...
marks that wiLL remind us how much it hurts to be
broken...
to have someone break you into pieces...
and you know what's worse...
no matter how hard we try to make things better,
it wont...
coz the very person making us miserable is the onLy
one who can take all the pain away...
and they wont aLways be back to put the pieces
together.
not because they cant...
but because they just wont...
its weird how that can break your heart into a
million more pieces...
just when you thought it couldnt hurt more, it does...
and it gets worse everyday...
every single ticking of the clock without them is like
a hammer to your chest...
pounding...
ever so silently...
vibrating pain all over your being...
killing you softly...
driving you weak...
just like when you had your first kiss...
who would have thought that there would be one person
who can make you weak for a million differenet
reasons...
someone who can make you lose control...
lose everything...
even yourself...
its not a bad thing, it tell you...
no, not being weak...
coz if it were, ...
Why do i find myself smiling?...
