scattered thoughts..

*asks with a playful smile..
You : nothing.. come sit with me..
Honey : *tickles you gently.. Tell me..
You : I’m thinking about how happy you make me.. *holds Honey’s hand..

I was sitting here and I couldn’t help smiling. I was trying to remember when I last felt like this… and every time I think about one, I’d realize, it’s because of you..

Since I was a little girl, I dreamed of having someone sweep me off my feet. That didn’t happen the first time we met. In fact, many things that happened between us were totally unexpected. You didn’t give me flowers like I wanted. You didn’t go to my house to woo me. You didn’t even like me the way I liked you at first. But you know what? You gave me exactly the feeling of getting flowers and being wooed. All that without doing anything. Nothing at all! And I thought, why? Why would a stranger like you, fill my insides with butterflies? And you were not even trying! And just now I realized, what I felt for you then, must have been something bigger than me.. bigger than you.. because you were not my fairytale.. but you made me feel like I was in one.. I was not about to let someone who made me float, pass me by.. I would not be haunted by what ifs and should haves.. I guess that was what you liked about me.. I was a risk taker..

The kind of love that I felt for you made me lose control.. and it excited me despite the complications.. I was scared but not having you, scared me more.. now I realize, that I was right to love you.. that I was right to follow my heart. I might have had doubts then.. and I might have hurt you for being so afraid but know that I loved you more for making me want to take the risk.. because you knew, that in love, if you don’t risk everything, you risk even more. I love that about you.. you don’t need to do anything to make my heart skip a beat.. you just have to be there and I would be breathless.. no one can do that to me but you.. and I feel so lucky to have found you and have you love me.. I realize that a lot of things.. a lot of people have made me happy in the past.. but never the way you do.. not even close.. do you know that a lot of people only dream of having that feeling? Because of you, I don’t have to dream anymore.. Because of you I have a glimpse of what love truly is.. a glimpse because I know we still have a lot to go through.. and surpassing whatever those are, will make me love you even more, if that’s possible.. and it makes me smile to know that from the moment you loved me, I felt complete..

Every single time I realize how happy I am with you, I stop and make sure that I am not dreaming.. and when I realize I’m not, I pray my hardest for God not to take you away.. So I try to be good so He would not realize how unworthy I am of your love.. of His love. I take every moment with you in my heart and I try to remember every laughter I’ve shared with you.. and I make myself believe that it’s real.. that you’re real.. that we’re really happy..

Sometimes, when you’re sleeping, I couldn’t help but stare.. stare and be amazed at how you can just sleep there and make me melt.. how you can do absolutely nothing and still captivate me.. how you can change my life and make me feel complete..

I have never been so thankful in my life.. and never, in my strangest dream, would I have thought that I could learn so much about life and myself just by following my heart and loving one person.

*You look into your Honey’s eyes as you say..
As I sit here, I realize the enormity of my love for you.. and it makes me whole to know that you love me too..
I learned that, in the end of it all,.. to be happy.. you don’t need a whole lot.. you just need one person. And baby, in my life time…..